This is quickly becoming the blog of the cranky. I am not usually cranky, although I wouldn’t call myself particularly perky, either. But today I am deeple cranky. I have yelled at Sam about five times for being actually irritating and several times for just being. Now, when he’s finally at school and Lily is napping, I just can’t DO anything.
For starters, two of the three things I most want to do–have a baby and buy a new house–are totally out of my control. I hate that to begin with. The third thing–finish my book–seems so daunting. Usually I have no problem sitting down to work knowing that it could be five minutes, or thirty, or an hour–if I did, I’d never work. But I’m not doing it well today. For one thing, Dog #1 is achieving, once again, new heights in nervousness. She wants to be where I am, but she can’t be still. She kept turning circles under the computer desk until she pulled the modem off with the cords, so I moved into the bedroom. Now she wants up on the bed. She can’t get here herself, and I could lift her back half, and I would, if I believed she’d lie down—but I think what she would do is to turn circles up here. And pant. So she’s making me crazy. Can’t put her out, she’ll throw herself at the door of wherever she is endlessly. I’m beginning to seriously consider doggy prozac. I just can’t deal with her, on top of everything else, on top of ME. I can barely deal with me!
I am supposed to go to a Happy Baby party for a friend who’s due about when I am tonight, but I don’t know. I don’t feel very happy. The party might make me feel more happy, or I might end up more irritated. NOt that I think I could BE more irritated.
I hate moods. MOst of all I hate feeling like, after all, who’s fault is it I feel this way? Who’s the only person who can change it? Who can turn that frown upside-down, Pollyanna?
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